Sometimes I just don’t get it.  Last night we had a recording session, everything was fine,  he came to bed about 3 or 4, im not sure the time.  About an hour later I got up to come smoke a cig and I thought he was asleep so I just got up.  A few minutes later he wakes up and sits down while I am on facebook just passing time while I was smoking and he says that I am addicted to facebook.  He asks are you addicted to facebook or me more?  I said hmmmm, that would be you.  He said nope you hesitated.  Since then he hasn’t spoken to me since. He has been distant and ignoring me.  He just passed by and said when I come back in I want to talk to you.  I just don’t get it.  It has been a great week.  How can anyone turn things off so fast and for nothing.  I may say stupid shit  evry ow and again but  he is my life.  He is the only thing I have, the only person that I have in my life besides my kids that mean aything to me.  I don’t have anyone else.  Im not as obsservant as he is but im not stupid either.  He always says that im not as open with him as he is with me.  I cnat help it im not a talker and I kep things inside.  I don’t know how to change but I do no that I have been working on improving myself.  Learning how to be a better person for him, because of him.
